Thursday, June 13, 2013

Waiting for me in retirement

"I thought I was going to become the me that I had been waiting for." 

I'm quoting Grace Forrest of Windthread who loves goats and stitching and shares her daily thoughts about life and living in New Mexico.

I simply can't stop thinking about it. When I read it I knew exactly what it meant to me.  

I thought I was going to become the me that I had been waiting for.

I thought I would become a better housekeeper.
I thought every book, sock, shoe, glass and plate would be in it's place.
I thought I would purge and organize all the drawers and closets.
I thought I could conquer the every present dust. 
I thought I could find a place for all those stacks of stuff that become a part of a room because they have been stacked in that one spot for so long. 


I thought I was going to become the me that I had been waiting for.

I thought I would become a better gardener.
I thought ever blade of grass would always be trimmed.
I thought every weed would be pulled.
I thought flower seeds would be planted.
I thought the hedges would be clipped.
I thought I would have a rose garden.


I thought I was going to become the me that I had been waiting for.

I thought I would be a better Mother, Grandmother and Sister.
I thought I could visit my children more.
I thought I could take them on family vacations. 
I thought I could go to movies with grandchildren and take them shopping and go on lunch dates.
I thought I could visit and talk to my brothers and their families more.
I thought I could have regular big family dinners with aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces, and nephews.
I thought I could make new family traditions for always-and-forever memories.


I thought I was going to become the me that I had been waiting for.

I thought I would be a better friend. 
I thought I would meet up regularly for backyard visits or pizza dates.
I thought I would celebrate their birthdays (on time).
I thought I would have phone visits.


I thought I was going to become the me that I had been waiting for.

I thought I would be a better Artist.
I thought I would paint every day.
I thought I would always be inspired.
I thought I would develop more classes to teach.
I thought I would blog more regularly.
I thought I would enjoy my sewing studio more.
I thought I would finish Tim's Cloth and make three more.

I thought I was going to become the me that I had been waiting for.

If I could only retire.


13 comments:

  1. I know exactly what you mean! lol

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  2. This is all so many thoughts I can, identify with, except, I do some of these things with less urgency, I use to have this urgent feeling of having to hurry because I had less time to do them, now I think I have time, no hurry, and it is somewhat of a mistake, I don't have all the time in the world, just what is given and I have no idea how that time will play out. Retirement is pleasant, some things have fallen away that were so important, new things that I didn't recognize before. Seems there is an adjustment that goes on to this state, and actually I feel younger in retirement then I did when I had a job.

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    1. Emelie, you are right about the "less urgency" thing. I guess that is one reason I haven't made the progress of becoming the me that I had been waiting for. As far as the adjustment in retirement, I have deduced that the adjustment is never over.

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  3. Norah thank you for sharing this today, really touching and makes me feel so emotional I don't know why. I thought? I also wonder what I thought.

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  4. RIGHT on the mark! Who was (is) the me I've been waiting for?

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    1. You too Chris? As astounded as I am that I haven't become that me yet, I can say the I HAVE NOT missed one moment of that desk-in-town!!!

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  5. This is great Sharon! We are just interested in too many things! The amazing thing is that we actually have had all these wonderful thoughts and ideas! Living life this way is never boring, is it?

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    1. Right. Never boring. I sure never worried about becoming a bored me when I retired.

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  6. So very relatable and well written...

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    1. Hi friend, I bet you could give me some tips and pointers on managing this new me.

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  7. Sharon, I've recently celebrated one year of retirement and FINALLY feel like I can get around to figuring out "who I am" which translates to "how do I want to spend my time?" It's amazing - we wait for and dream about the day of retiring ... I even made a list of 50 things to respond to the question "what will you DO?" - yet it takes time to figure it all out. Really enjoyed your post.

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